A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Like most women, I struggle with my weight and overall appearance. I have some memories of receiving mean and crude remarks about my size in school and from a few family members, plus of course all the "beautiful people" that we females grow up looking at.
I admit, though, that I'm extremely proud of my progress. At the time of my marriage, I had lost 75 pounds. Granted, at 140 pounds I think I was too thin for my frame and build. I guess I just wanted to know how small I could get or what I would look like. And you know something crazy? I still wasn't happy with the way I looked. I think I had an idea of what I would look like that small, but my body didn't look like the girls I admired on TV. My stomach wasn't tight, my thighs weren't toned and my boobs!? GONE. Anyway, during my first year or two of my marriage I had gained about 20-25 pounds. I had begun doing some mental exercises to help my self-image so that when I looked in the mirror I wasn't as unhappy. I have since been trying to lose some of the weight again but I would like to get down to 150. At 140, I couldn't eat what I felt like was enough. I would like to be thin enough to to be comfortable in my clothes and feel sexy in just about anything I put on. Luckily, God blessed me with a wonderful husband who makes me feel sexy no matter my weight or what I wear. Hopefully I'll be able to catch up with him in his views of my body.
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